I am totalled Lost!!

It has been a month I didnt blog. Tonight, all friends have went out to chill, I choose to stayback. The main reason is because I do not know what should I do when I see her. There is a strong feeling came back to me and I have never have such crush in these few years.

Oh Gosh, Am I fall in love again?

Yes, I am. Even though I am not expert or professional who knows how to handle my love life well, but, I have abit of experience. Each broke-up lead me to learn new things, see new things and try to be better for next partner. There is one thing that I am really stubborn which I cannot control my "love".

There is once somebody told me, "please dont take it so seriously, take it easy...", even though I know I shouldnt put all my feels toward her, but, I really, I really couldnt control my love feel. It just not a matter of putting how many sugar into coffee, which can be control. When I love somebody, I really follow my heart which I will love deeply, as deep as possible. I believe loving somebody, is to show and pass your heart to your partner, which is not under my control.

I know I sounds stupid, but, thats me. I have try my best, to show my interest to her, but I know there is no "the best" but I'll keep trying hard to be the best. Things that I dont know, I m willing to learn, place that you wish to go, I will try to find a way to accompany you there, things you wanna eat, I will accompany you even I dislike it and there is only little thing I requested.
Tell me whether I have chance?

Tonight, I dont know why I'm down. I meant real down, I have never ever had such feel before.
It has been 2nd nights I dint communicate with her, there will be another 4 nights to go...
Friend taught me, if she has interest in me, she will automatically contact me even though I didnt contact her in a week time. What if she didnt communicate me within this week?

Answer: She has no or least interest on me. Thats mean a No-go for me.

In fact, whether she has interest or no-interest at me, I really would like to know, because keep delaying like this is really suffering. I cant eat well, sleep well and live well. Why love gonna be like this? It shouldnt work like this, love is not suppose to be romantic and sweet? It aint happen to me yet. I doubt do I have the chance to see it and taste it one day?

I believe there is one "powerful" things will make things clear. Answer will be there, sad or happy moments will be there for you too. And it is "time".

Time proves things, time washed out bad memory, time heal everything. Is juz a matter of time.

Time to for me to take a rest. Thanks for your precious time to share my sad story. Hope there will be a happier one to share with you guys.

Wish you all the best.

Night~